What would you say if I told you I lied?
What if I lied when I said I knew things would be okay? Because they wouldn't.
What if I lied when I said I was going to be okay, but I wouldn't.
What if I lied when I said I forgave you? Because I was furious and never could.
What if I lied that night when I said we were always going to be friends? Because clearly, we're not anymore.
What if I lied when I said I hated you? I never could.
What if I lied when I said I love you? I never could do that either.
What if I lied when I said I was over you--because I'm not. Not quite.

But what if I'm wrong? What if I'm not lying? What if... you are lying? Did everything mess me up so badly that I always think I'm the problem--because I know I'm not. What if you were the problem?

What if you lied when you said things would be okay? Because you had something in mind to destroy that all.
What if you lied when you said you were going to be okay? Because you should have been worrying about me, not yourself.
What if you lied when you said you were sorry? Because you were not. Even if you were, you would do it again.
What if you lied when you said you wanted to be friends again? Because clearly, I was the second choice.
What if you lied when you said you hated me? No, I don't think you did.
What if you lied when you said you loved me? No, you did love me. But it didn't last.
What if you lied when you said you were over me? Well it doesn't matter, does it?

I have all these questions that I thought I needed to know the answer to, but it turns out, I know them all. They're just too hard to face on my own. We're both liars, aren't we?

I'm sorry.