Let me start today’s article with a question to you. When you were younger, what did you dream about how your life will be when you are older? What was your dream job? What was your dream in general?

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When I was a little girl, I dreamed of getting married by the age of 26 and then having two children. I also dreamed about having figured life out at all by this time in my life. Right now, at this time, I can tell you that I am way far away from that point in life. Well, if I would fulfil my dream from my younger self, then I would get married next year. Hell no, that this would happen. I do still dream about my fairytale wedding, but I don’t see this step right now in my life because I’m still in university. I have one year left with my master degree and therefore, having my own family now is impossible. Also, sometimes I feel like I can’t even handle my own life, so how am I supposed to take responsibility for a child?! Mid-twenty is also actually a peculiar age. It’s that time in life where most of my friends and I are getting our academic careers done, and a few other friends just got married and now are expecting their first child. It feels like a completely different world.

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PRESSURE & WORK-LIFE BALANCE

Most of the time I would say I know what I want in life, but since I’m in my master studies, I do more often get the feeling that I have no clue how to handle adulting and what I do even want anymore.
It starts with the feeling that somehow, my efforts for school aren’t enough anymore, and my grades are not as high as they used to be. Now I know that academic grades aren’t everything, but for me, they are actually significant. The consequences of not getting the result I hoped for did lead to my lack of motivation and also my creativity block, which affected my website during the last months. I just had the feeling that whatever I do, it doesn’t seem to be enough. The only thing that I could still manage somehow was my accounting job. Besides that, I had the feeling that I am failing in life, which is honestly one of my worst fears. Sometimes those feelings hit me harder and sometimes a little bit less. So, it took me a few months of driving crazy, mistakes and lack of motivation, but here I am. Ready and motivated to get back on track! Ready for getting back into the girl who knows what she wants and who is willing to work for achieving her dreams and goals!

I also came to the understanding that I can’t live like I used to do anymore. My life was like studying and working like crazy until I was so exhausted and nearly to a burn-out with depressions and anxiety attacks that I literally threw everything away...

For the complete article head over to:
https://www.thedailyhappiness.net/2019/07/21/mid-twenty-and-havent-figured-life-out-yet/

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