Have you ever spent hours on hours huddled in front of a TV screen after a breakup, bad day, or heartbreak?
A) Yes B)Nah
C)What are you talking about?
D) That's my daily routine no heartbreak needed
If your answer is A or D, I invite you to stick around because... hi there sister.
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Recently, I've grown into a habit of consulting the various movies/TV series at the smallest notice of the feelings creeping in. As soon as heartbreak or the sadness form a horrible day hit I went straight to the play button. I know many people do so as well. We see all the movies with girls crying after heartbreak while eating their feelings in front of the TV screens. For a long time, I thought there was nothing wrong with this practice, until today.
This day can go down in my books as another heartbreak, mixed with a sadness of realizing that in a year I'll have to leave my home and never come back. After facing the day, I came home to quiet my racing mind by stuffing it with any TV shows I would be able to find.
However, as I was just about to press play my eyes were caught by the old paint brushes laying in the corner of my room. They called to me, begging me to make them feel new and loved once again. Over the span of last three hours I've covered half of my room in art supplies, drenched my hands in paint, and spilled my feelings onto canvas, which gave birth to a magnificent piece of art. I felt free, creative, alive, and so far from everything that has been bothering me.
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As the brush transferred the unspoken words onto the canvas, my mind revived. I was reborn. I had something to offer. I was worthy. I was greater than any obstacle in my way. I had all this power inside me which I could unleash onto a canvas.
The only thought in my head as the brush made its last strike was: "Why don't I do this more often?" The answer to the question was that I had been too busy consulting TV shows to create something out of my feelings.
The thing is when we bury our feeling in TV shows and movies, we just ignore them until they eventually fade away, but what if we could actually make something amazing out of them?
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the feelings are a gateway to art. Where would Taylor Swift be if after every single breakup she watched an episode of supernatural instead of writing a song?
The moral of the story is, don't resent your feelings, use them as a fuel to create something truly amazing. Use them to create art, use them to write, use them to give you the motivation to work out, to improve, to develop. Maybe one day those feelings will lead you to your career.
By using the feelings instead of resenting them you are creating something that will make you feel amazing because it shows you that you are valuable, you can create all this.
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I mean there's nothing wrong with indulging in a friends episode once in a while, but the best breakup revenge is taking those sad feelings and creating something magnificent with them.
"So you can throw me to the wolves
Tomorrow I will come back
Leader of the whole pack
Beat me black and blue
Every wound will shape me
Every scar will build my throne"
- Bring Me The Horizon
So use your pain to build your throne ♡ - So (lo)n(g) and go(o)d night -Angelinp(u)rga(t)ory
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