Here is something I wrote just over a week ago. It's an article about time. I hope you can take the time to read this (ironically haha).

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This morning I sat outside while drinking a cup of coffee. It was a peaceful morning with the winter sunshine welcoming the day. I love how the winter sun warms your skin and calms your mind. Like time moves more slowly then.

So I sat there and really took in the world. I listened to all the different bird sounds and how cheerful they are. I listened to the far off noises of traffic and building suggesting life. I watched the slightest breeze add movement to the plants. I watched the birds fly from tree to tree and even the ants walking along the pavement minding their own business.

It reminded me of something I once read. How us humans are the only ones obsessed with time keeping. Animals just go through the day doing what they are here to do. That simple. They don’t run around in a hasty manner because they are running late for a meeting or set alarms because they need to be up by a certain time. No, they just live their lives.

“Try to imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on the wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. Man alone measures time. Man alone chimes the hour. And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. A fear of time running out.”

And maybe that’s why we’re so unhappy. Because we obsess over time and that time is running out. But sometimes this is good because it motivates us to get something done. Now I’m not suggesting a life without time keeping but it sure would be nice to be more in tune with our bodies. Waking up with the sun rather than an alarm screaming in your ear. And going to be bed a few hours after dark when your body starts to feel tired. To eat when you are hungry rather because it’s time for lunch and you might not even be hungry. And not worrying about time running out because what is time anyway?

“Five minutes are enough to dream a whole life, that is how relative time is.”
– Mario Benedetti

But the reality is that in today’s time we can’t live without time completely. We have meetings to attend, to be in time for class, taxes to get done before a certain date and other people’s time to consider. But it would be nice to forget about time where you can. Stop and smell the roses. Just live your life.

But we feel we have to be married by a certain age and start a family a few years after that. But before that your career has to be ‘successful’ because you won’t have ‘time’ to follow your dreams when you have to take care of your kids.

I think time and purpose go hand in hand. If you feel like you don’t have a purpose and you’re ‘wasting your time’ then you spend more time stressing over time running out. The funny thing is that we’re too busy yet we feel like we’re getting nowhere. Because society or just yourself have put a timeframe on your life. When your goals have to be achieved otherwise you won’t be ‘successful’.

But by not knowing our purpose we run around chasing other smaller goals that need to be achieved in time for us to feel fulfilled.

Maybe if we know our purpose we won’t be so haunted by time. Because you know what to focus on and don’t spend time chasing seemingly fulfilling goals. Chuck Palahniuk said it best, “You’re always haunted by the idea that you’re wasting your life.”

For me, the days when I am happiest is when I wake up early and get stuff done. It doesn’t have to be a lot of things, but I finished something I started and I felt productive. This is only temporarily though but maybe if you have an actual purpose you are working towards you experience more lasting happiness? The days when I feel worst about myself is when I sleep late and I spend the entire day feeling lazy and lethargic. I feel unhappy because I didn’t do anything. I was wasting my time.

“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.”

So I have it we only feel happy when we have meaning. But to have meaning you have to live out your purpose. And if you dedicate your entire life to your purpose you won’t feel like you’re wasting your time.

“If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I’ll bet they’d live a lot differently… When you look into infinity, you realize that there are more important things than what people do all day.”
– Bill Watterson

Now I don’t know how one finds their purpose but I think it helps to get in touch with yourself. By actually making time for yourself and becoming silent. By getting in touch with nature like looking at the stars, a sunrise or the ocean. Maybe it seems stupid but those things really help. It’s like you see things more clearly. Nature always makes me happy and makes me think of the life I want to live and I get these feelings in my chest that are so big I want to scream. I think that’s pure joy. And I think those feelings are passions. And your passions are connected to your purpose.

But I should connect more with nature. Because it always inspires me but then I lose that feeling after being absorbed by the world again and fall back into my old ways and into the fear of not making enough money to support myself one day.

But I guess we should take risks. If it’s your passion you’ll be able to make a living out of it if you work hard even if you won’t make a lot of money, because that’s not important anyway. I think a happy life is actual success rather than money or fame.

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