Hi,well first of all I'm not a writer,okay? I just want to express what I feel,I want to feel that someone actually hears me.

These days I can't seem to figure out what's happening to me. I've lost interest in what I used to love,there are nights where I cant sleep at all,and other I sleep 14 hours. I dont feel like eating as well. I feel empty, like falling into a hole;you cant escape. The thing is that I dont feel empty all the time,I mean yeah I can laugh,I can feel happy and have fun sometimes,but after that I return to the same;emptyness.

Every time I fight with someone (and I mean stupid fights,those "I wont talk to you for 2 days then we'll be like always) I just dont know what to do. I feel so many fucking things that the become none. I dont know if someone can understand me,but I hope so. I cry so easily that it pisses me off,I dont wanna be this sensible,I wanna be strong you know? I just cry and cry,people dont even believe me and think Im just trying to manipulate others. Fuck no,I cant control it,I try,I really try to stop this "feelings". I just start to imagine how life would be if Im not here and honestly it sucks;Its like you know there are people that would cry if you die,but in your head it makes fucking sense to kill yourself. I reaaly wanna stop,I need to stop. Some nights I cry myself to sleep... and well it sucks.This fucking feeling sucks.

I'm sorry if there are any typos or mistakes in general,I'm anxious and english is not my native language.

Thank you so much for reading,I hope... someone can understand me