Authours Note: Hey Everyone, I've decided to start this series of articles where I will be saying everything I wish I had said to the people who are/were in my life. Just letter to people that I haven't had the guts to say in person. Of course this will all be anonymous so there won't be any calling out people's names, that part will be kept under wraps. I know these articles will be confusing so if you don't want to read, that's completely fine. These are more just to get my feelings and thoughts down, just so my head won't be as crowded. But if you do enjoy them, then that’s a bonus.

Now, I'll stop my rambling. Here is the second part of my 'Yours Truly' series.

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Part 2/13

To The Girl I Broke,

I'm sorry for leaving you the way I did. I hate that I completely ended whatever we had between us. I know this is years too late, but honestly, I felt so suffocated in our toxic friendship. The only way I could finally breathe was to move on. I am constantly reminded of you every day of my life, and I do genuinely hope that you are okay and surrounded by people that are nothing but caring, supportive, and above all loyal. It pains me I couldn't be that person for you.

When I met you I never thought we would end up being the bestest of friends. I also didn't know that I would completely obliterate and scar us for the rest of our lives. We had so many good times and I know I turned bitter on you when you did certain things, I was scared that you didn't trust or care for me anymore and that's what made me explode. I did and still do care about you, but at the end of the day I had to put my happiness first and I didn't think it was fair to be leading a fake friendship.

In all honesty, I am scared to death to see you again. In all of my nightmares with you, you look so disappointed and like you completely hate me. I am holding onto the slight glimmer of hope that you don't, but i'm not holding my breath. I would hate myself too. I know I am years too late and I would never have the balls to say any of this, but I really do hope you are okay. I know that you turned to pills and liquor, and that you switched off your humanity because of the loss of your friend. I'm so disgusted with how I ended things and how I have lived my life after vanishing off the face of the planet.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I am so sorry that we've both had to go through this loss. We both deserved better then what we were given. Maybe you'll learn to forgive me in time too...

Yours truly,
Gone Girl.

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