Why this article?

So yes, here I go.. My first ever article on here. I decided to write one because I've always loved to write, but never in public. That's also why it is anonymously written. First claim also is, that English is not my first language. Dutch is. ;)

But yeah, back to business.. 'Cause today I wanted to talk about the struggles I'm having lately and kinda wanting to share them with you, 'cause maybe someone experiences the same feelings right now and supporting each other could never do anyone harm right?!

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Who doesn't, right?


First off, I'm a 20 year old Bachelor student and I'm in my last year of college. This means I'm almost graduating and that scares the hell out of me. Just for the record, I study Communication. But as the end comes closer I doubt my own assets and expertise in the industry.
I always feel the pressure to do the best I can, but I sometimes catch myself feeling completely blank when I receive a new case for me to work on. "What can I do? What is the next step? What is the best solution to this problem? What did I miss in school to not know the answers?"
All kinds of thoughts that flash through my mind...

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How I feel for a split second

No one really knows how I feel about it, I think about it on a daily bases. Mainly because I feel like I really have to deliver something when I start my first job. They will see my as a junior Communication colleague and no longer as a senior year student. I have the feeling they expect so much more.

But do they? Or is it all in my head? Am I the only one worrying about my future and ability or is it normal to think like this? I have no clue.. Only thing I know is that I enjoy every minute in college with all of my school friends and freedom I still have now.

I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. ;p

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See you next time ;)