There is no way I will go back to the feelings and demons that would haunt me at 2am. There is no way I will have a breakdown in front of my mirror again, crying in despair, praying that the face in the mirror will eventually get a little prettier. There is no way I will go back to that evening when I was so desperate that I sticked my finger down my throat to make myself throw up the food that i felt so bad about. There is no way anyone will make me feel like I don't deserve my place in this world again, just because I am not pretty and skinny and good enough. There is no way I will go back to hating myself so much again that I would feel like noone might be capable of loving me. There is no way anyone or anything will make me feel so worthless again. Never again.