I have a confession to make, that I haven't really told myself.
Ohh, I wanna see him so badly. I haven't seen him for years and I don't even know how he's like. He has a girlfriend, I know that. But just for curiosity, I wanna meet him. Just to see him. Just to talk to him. Just to take a quick glance of him, his character as an adult. The way he speaks, the way he laughs, moves. I wanna know if he's happy and maybe we could be friends.
The past few days that idea has stucked into my head and I don't know what to do. I don't even know what to say to him and I'm afraid that it would be very awkward. Just the two of us sitting in a cafeteria talking about ourselves. Wow, that freaks me out.
I'm scared. I'm not afraid to admit this and all I can think about is; Is it worth it? To put myself and him in some kind of challenge for nothing? And who says that he wants to go out with me, even if it's not a date and we're going as friends?
Is it? Is it worth it?
- Love, Filio