This is a question that's been a parasite in my head since my grandmother passed not too long ago. Or, was it first present when the supposed love of my life abandoned me in January? Or, was it when I experienced death for the first time with my grandfather dying when I was fourteen?

I certainly didn't know how to process my grandfather's death when I was fourteen, nor do I know if the way I'm processing now is the most efficient, healthy, and all-over correct way. But I do know that there is no right way to process, and if all you're trying to do is be "efficient" about it just to get to normalcy, it'll only frustrate you more.

Emotions do not operate on logic, they don't operate on a perfect five-step process on grief that's perfectly linear and the same for everyone. We, as humans, are complicated -- we all have different things about ourselves stemming from our nature or nurture that result in us reacting to different things in completely different ways.

Loss, in particular, can result in a multitude of different reactions. Some of us can't help but burst into tears, while others suffer with a dry eye. Even when we're crying, some are quiet, and some are loudly bawling. Frustration, sadness, and anger can all manifest in different things. A little bit over time, distributed among different people, or letting it all lose on one trusted individual. These are all completely valid ways of coping, provided that an unhealthy reliance isn't produced as a result.

The only method I don't condone is handling it all by relying solely on vices; running away from your feelings only results in prolonging the pain and stunting emotional growth and maturity. Now, it's alright to grab a drink with a friend from time to time. Maybe you need to not fully exist or be there for a bit to relax. But everything is a process. The only way to move on from something is to let that something go, first.

So, if you're reading this article. I can only imagine that you've experienced something hard, the loss of a loved one. Firstly, I want to say that whatever you're feeling, you are valid in feeling so. Losing someone is never easy, and it must feel like the pain will always be there. Depending on the situation, there is the possibility of it always being there, like a scar.

But, scars do fade over time; this pain will not always be so vivid and searing. The bleeding will stop. Your eyes will be tired of crying. You'll hunger for your favorite foods again, and your muscles will remember what life was like before this. Perhaps you'll find something new to get into, meet people who can understand what you've gone through and who will be able to help you through everything. The world still exists, as does tomorrow -- and you will carry on.

However, even if you still hurt... I think that the creators of Wandavision wrote it best:

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What is grief, if not love persevering?