what is the point in loving someone that wastes your time and breaks your heart into millions of pieces? I don't understand why this world gives you someone that you pour your heart out to then just for the world to take him away and hand him another girl? like this is a game. My name... well I am not going to say my name what's the point it's not important. I loved him he made me feel unique like there was no one like me out here in this big world. Like all the other 7.8 billion people don't matter but ME. God, I cry every night missing him thinking to my self what went wrong? why did he do this to me? What was the reason? Did all those years not matter to him?. He is two years older than me I am 18 years old he always called me his little lassie. Which means "a young girl, a lass, especially one seen as a sweetheart". Well, I use to be a sweet innocent girl until He took my virginity away from me he was gentle and slow kind, and sweet to me. Gave me everything, called me 24/7 to make sure I was okay when he was at work. I live in a three-bedroom apartment and he lived with me. we wake up together sleep together eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner together. We never got tired of seeing each other instead we learned more and more about each other. His parents loved me since I came over every other weekend. We spent a day in our bed admiring each other, making love, and discussing our future together. what it would be like to be married maybe have kids... we slept naked together feeling the warmth of our bodies close and full and touching the bare skin like every border was broken and could feel free to touch where ever we like. we lay there for hours holding each other listening to our breathing and hearts in rhythm. "What is wrong with you lately!" I said screaming at him well-informed that there another girl in the picture. "What do you mean I am perfectly normal!" he said yelling back at me. " Why did you do this to me... why?" I said dropping to the floor crying in my hands. He made his way around the bed and to me. "what's wrong Lil lass" he said trying to make the situation better. I pushed him away "YOU know what's WRONG! " I cried till my eyes turned red. "Babe please talk to me what the matter you know I hate seeing you sad just tell me what's wrong?". "how long?" I said forcing myself to look at him "how long WHAT??" he said now very more confused "HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN WITH THAT OTHER GIRL!!" I said getting up to my feet trying to walk past him. " Who are you talking about?" he said blocking my way." you know WHO! stop acting DUMB let me past please I don't want to see your face anymore!" I said hitting his chest " lass please just calm down here sit down on the bed please and listen can you do that?" he said wrapping his arms around me and setting me on the bed. "almost a month..." he said before I yelled at him "How could you. I trusted you I gave you everything. I gave you my heart and you stepped on it like trash. You made me look DUMB all this time! " I held my weak body in my arms I think I'm going to be sick. "I am sorry lassie please just hear me out," he said sitting in front of me trying to hold my hand but I wouldn't let him. "you mean the world to me okay shes nothing completely, entirely, fully, and utterly nothing I promise okay believe me I swear. I broke up with her 2 weeks ago thinking to myself that she is not like you, she nothing like you please forgive me I swear lassie" he said crying to me in my hands. " tell me everything..." he looked up puzzled " how did you guys meet?" I said taking my hands away from him. " please don't let me explain" he said "it will only hurt you more please don't make me..." he said before I disrupted "HOW DID YOU GUYS MEET" I yelled " we met at a coffee shop she was sitting at a table I was on my lunch break. I ordered you a drink, there was a huge line so I stood there waiting for the coffee every seat was taken. she asked me to sit with her... we talked and she gave me her number that's all I remember from that day I swear." " Do you love her?" I said while every second of my heartbreaking to pieces. "what! NO, I DON'T I LOVE YOU!" he said scooting closer to me. "If you loved me you would have been FAITHFUL to me and not done what you did," I said getting up from the bed walking away from him. "PLEASE lassie I swear it didn't mean anything please." he said behind me. I ran to the bathroom locking the door behind me. "Did you guys have sex!" I said laying on the floor crying."..." he didn't say anything. "YOU DID DIDN'T YOU!" I held myself tight. "I am sorry lassie I REALLY am please open the door!" he said " OH GOD! how could you. Did any of the years we've been together mean anything to you." "Yes It did and still does It means the WORLD TO ME. please lassie I am sorry. I'm not leaving you I don't care what you say please OPEN THE DOOR." he said hitting the door. "Leave me alone I don't want to see you". That night killed me. My heart shattered to dust I felt numb, senseless, frozen, paralyzed any word that describes a loss of emotions and physical movement. I waited and waited he sat there by the door. I opened it and he stood up I walked to my bed and fell asleep there was nothing I could do anymore. He lost my trust, love, and me. All I could do was sleep hoping I never wake up. FuCK lOvE...