Have you started to worry about your age ?

I am 22 years old this year.

But......I just dont know why I started to become anxious of getting older and older.....

I don't want to get older....

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I watched a video of 40years old mother having 22 years old daughter,

the moment I started to think of how old she gave birth to her daughter,

I pressed my phone calculator.......the answer is she gave birth to her daughter when she is 18 years old.

And I start to do some reflection or maybe I should say I start to think about myself....

"How about me ? When should I give birth and then when I am not too old, my children are grown up?" I asked myself.

Oh gosh !!! I dont even have a boyfriend now ?!!

How am I able to have child then ??? Sperm bank in drama??

Oh my ......Am I too early to scared about this ......I asked myself again...

Maybe I should start to plan how I want my life to be ?

But how ???!!! Do you think you can plan everything as you wish ???

NOOOOOOO...definitely no!!!

................Recently, I just started to have skincare routine in my daily life.

The more I learned from Beauty artist (youtuber and sorts...)......
The more I get anxious.....of getting older.....

Should I start to accept that everyone will grows old as time goes by.....?

Life changes with time .....I strongly believe ........

Is it I need to start hunting of good boys or men ......?

So that I can get married on time and give birth on time...?

I really don't know.....

Or I should just slowly get a boyfriend when time comes?

........Or I should just dont get married and prepare for not getting married and not getting baby and slowly become older and .....die ....eventually alone ?

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No idea.................

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