Welcome to the fifteenth articles in this series:

I skipped two days of this series because I Haden't really done anything different, and I got bored of writing the same things everyday. But today was special.

๐˜ฟ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š: 08/12/2020

Today was my mom's birthday. Despite the lack of relationship with my mom, I decided to be there for her to have someone to enjoy it with. Surprisingly enough, I felt better than I thought I would. We decorated a small table in out living room, had a delicious chocolate cake and a delicious sea food bake for dinner. I loved seeing the look on my mom's face when she opened my present and even though my emotions about her remain the same, I was still in a better mood than usual.

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I also finished my final paper for my college course.I'm very proud of all of my hard work and how far I've come. It's probably the best paper I've ever written and no matter the grade I get on it, it will be one of my best and favorite things that I've written. It took me all day yesterday and half of my day today to finish it, but I loved seeing my ability to research and relate it to real life. Writing it made me feel smart.

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I also did a lot of thinking today. Someone I think didn't care actually might. And I realized that sometimes leaving people isn't about whether or not you'll miss them, and it doesn't require a valid reason. My sanity and healing is what matters most.

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Overall, today I'm grateful for the ability to flow with my emotions. To be happy and still have a cluttered mind and to be able to get work done, while still having fun. I'm also grateful for him; we may not be close , but the little things he says mean a lot compared to the nothing that I've received from someone else.


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