I miss you and everything you do. Your inability to notice hints. Your lack of self awareness when it comes to being seconds away from hurting yourself; In the efforts of trying to be funny. We both know you aren’t.

I miss the late conversations that can go for hours because we can talk about 80 things at once. Inside jokes that only me and you know because we have the same sense of humor. All the times you’ve made fun of me because I’m absolutely the worst at video games.

I miss days in the summer, where you’d come pick me up and we would hangout at your house. Catch up on the new horror movies because neither one of us like theaters. You’d laugh because I usually sit closer to the A/C and freeze my ass off.

All the times we’ve vented to one another about the dumb shit thats going on in our lives. The understanding of the heartbreak we’ve both been through, trying to make sence of it all. The friendship we have means the world to me and I like to think some days it does to you too.

I have so much I want to say to your face but whenever the chance came around I just froze. I don’t know what it is or why you scare the piss out of me. You are my best friend. I want you around all the time.

But if you ask, I’ll lie.