Have you ever been there for everyone else but no one there for you? Because that's basically my life. I give everyone else the attention and are there for them every time when they need someone but it feels like I when I need someone no one will be there. So I just get angry and then someone tells me I need to get my attitude straight or that I need to see a therapist. Ha, jokes on you I do. I can't remember the last time I did something for myself. I mean I could say that the days I have off are for me but to be honest they aren't I take two days off just to make sure everything that needs to get done gets done. Not that it matters because no one notices when they do. No one notices anything. I might as well just disappear and no one would notice. Until they need something and they come to me. But oh no, I'm no where to be found.

I am so tired of being there for everyone else or doing everything for everyone else. I have been for 6 years. And it doesn't matter what I do to try and change it. The same thing happens time and time again. I don't know maybe just not letting anyone get close or maybe just staying to myself would be better. Because lets be honest it really doesn't matter where I go or what I do differently because it's just who I am. And nothing can change that.