About 2 years ago, I had started writing some articles about my mental health success story. I had found some ways to slightly cope and I was becoming happier and happier, but unfortunately - It didn't last long.

It's been quite some time since I've updated. That's because I've been struggling. Some nights are worse than others. For me, my mental health became so overwhelming that I could no longer just do "home remedies" and etc.. I needed help.

I started going to therapy in October 2018. It's been almost 2 years since I started therapy and you can definitely see how far I've come. I still struggle pretty bad, trust me. It's not that easy. You can't just expect therapy to magically make everything disappear. You have to put effort in finding your true happiness.

That's what I'm struggling with. I'm struggling with doing MY ACTUAL therapy work. I'm struggling with COPING. I have bad procrastination issues so it's gotten in the way but therapy is very important.

There have been times when I needed to release all of my emotions/stress/anger and if I told my parents, they seemed annoyed - so having a therapist to rant to is pretty awesome. Plus, they're listening, so it feels good knowing that someone is actually there.

I used to self-diagnose myself and sometimes I do because of my Health Anxiety but my therapist was able to give some clarity to me and diagnose me with conditions. This helped me educate myself on each.

I'm diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Emetophobia, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Complex PTSD, Persistent Depressive Disorder, and she thinks I have possibly a sensory disorder or ADHD.

Knowing that I have a diagnosis is so clarifying. I remember driving myself crazy and sobbing myself to sleep thinking, "I'm a monster!"

In reality, I was just dealing with lots of things at once and it becomes so overwhelming after you deal with it alone for so long.

So, if you feel like you have some mental health struggles, I beg of you to reach out and get the help you need. You will feel so much better and feel more understood. You just need to find a therapist that YOU LIKE. Not who your family likes or not who your significant other likes.