You know how your brain can imagine such unrealistic scenarios, events or even words coming out from his mouth?
And how shocking it is when reality disappoints you?

Everything was fine, we were both drunk but my intentions where never to lead you on.
you pulled me into a dark room and gave me a kiss.
a kiss that was meaningless to you but not to me.
a kiss that ripped my heart out of my chest.

Pushed you away because I knew that it was wrong, but now, I wished I wouldn't have.
I asked you why
why now?
why me?
expecting a drunk and stupid answer
but you sat me down and said:
"You have to start believing in how beautiful and amazing you are"
...
and that just broke me.

just start with that one and then come back ;)