The few months before turning eighteen were weird to me. A lot of things were happening at once with the end of high school and the start of adulthood and I was lost, having a million of things to thinks and dread about. I kinda expected it but it was also really frightening. I had this terrible idea that my youth would end the moment my birthday would come and I dreaded it.

Some pieces of media helped me to feel at piece with the idea, or at least to be prepared to it. Some of the sentences and/or moments from what I listed below were really dear to me, I clutched to them in the hope that it would guide me through it, and it did.

Hoping that some of this will be useful to you !
(And don't worry, you have still so much to learn and to discover about yourself, nothing is ending, you decide wich phase of your life you are in).

MOVIES

- The edge of seventeen (2016)

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Still a comfort movie. Some of the scenes are really aesthetically pleasing and I love this girl with all my heart. The scene in which she speak to her brother at night wrecked and helped me, I really related to it.
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- The spectacular now (2013)

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It's fine living in the now but the best part of now is that there's another one tomorrow and I'm going to start making them count.

The quote speak for itself. A romance movie in which the boy does not want to think about the future. You really should watch it if you still haven't.

SONGS

- Socco amaretto lime - Brand New

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I'm gonna stay eighteen forever, so we can stay like this forever (and we'll never miss a party cause we keep them going constantly)

The music is calm and kinda hopeful, it actually made me look forward to being 18. It talks about going out with friends, wishing to leave the town in which we grew and it spoke to me at the time.

- River and roads - The head and the heart

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A year from now we'll all be gone, all our friends will move away, and they're going to better places (been talking 'bout the way things change and my family lives in a different state)

The last year of high school is so frightening, the idea that you may never see some of your friends again and the possibility that you can be sent far away...

- When I was younger - Liz Lawrence

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When I was younger, I told my mother "I say, one day I'm gonna make you proud". Now that I'm older it's so much harder to say those words out loud.

A song about childenhood and expectations.

- Lorde - Pure Heroine (the whole album really)

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"I feel grown up with you in your car, I know it's dumb" "And I've never felt so alone, it feels so scary getting old" "we're never done with killing time, can I kill it with you?"

This album constructed me in a way nothing else could have. At least one of the songs will touch you. To this day, I still listen to it when I'm feeling down. It makes you feel this strange feeling before turning 18 and it helps you coming to term with it.

If you want to discover a little more of what I listed, you should check those awesome things :)

(My way of writing might seem a little weird to you, I am French and not the best at writing well, sorry for any wrong word wor or sentence!)

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