โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

๐€๐ฅ๐ฉ๐ก๐š๐›๐ž๐ญ ๐๐จ๐ฒ - ๐Œ๐ž๐ฅ๐š๐ง๐ข๐ž ๐Œ๐š๐ซ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ž๐ณ

melanie martinez, alphabet boy, and kid image daddy, melanie martinez, and dolly image
I know my ABCs, yet you keep teaching me
I say, f**k your degree, alphabet boy
You think you're smarter than me with all your bad poetry
F**k all your ABCs, alphabet boy

She's always being treated like a kid, as if she could at any moment ruin everything

โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

๐‘๐ฎ๐ง๐š๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ - ๐€๐”๐‘๐Ž๐‘๐€

coat, forest, and free image home, Lyrics, and music image
I had a dream I was seven
Climbing my way in a tree
I saw a piece of heaven
Waiting patiently for me, down

She was 7 years when her dad was killed and she barely remembers his face anymore

And I was running far away
Would I run off the world someday?
Nobody knows, nobody knows
And I was dancing in the rain
I felt alive and I can't complain
But now take me home
Take me home where I belong
I can't take it anymore

She's trying to find her place in the world and strives for a feeling of belonging

โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

๐Ž๐ง๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐š ๐Œ๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐ง๐ญ - ๐‹๐จ๐ฅ๐š ๐Œ๐š๐ซ๐ฌ๐ก

aesthetic, alternative, and grunge image adventure, quotes, and life image
And suddenly I'm bored, I'm dancing in the dark
Counting all the billboards and the city lights
I'll keep all my affection in a paper cup
Runnin' after bluebirds, show you what I've got
Save all my tomorrows from the lonely nights

Catalina easily gets bored and she is impulsive, liking to do things on a whim

โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

๐ƒ๐ž๐ญ ๐Ÿรถ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š รค๐ซ ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ ๐ ๐ซ๐š๐ญ๐ข๐ฌ - ๐•๐ž๐ซ๐จ๐ง๐ข๐œ๐š ๐Œ๐š๐ ๐ ๐ข๐จ

quote, impulsive, and text image me, sometimes, and troubles image
ร„r fรถdd med trubbel i mitt blod
I'm born with trouble in my blood
Gรถr sรฅnt jag inte borde
Doing things I shouldn't do
Kan aldrig bara stรฅ bredvid
Can't just stand aside
Jag saknar tรฅlamodet
I lack the patience
Och jag kommer aldrig lรคngre
And I never get any further
Nรคr jag tรคnkt det har jag gjort det
When I' ve thought it I've done it

Cat is very impulsive and action-driven. She rarely stops to think about her actions and that is what gets her in trouble most of the time

โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

๐๐š๐ฌ๐ค๐ž๐ญ ๐‚๐š๐ฌ๐ž - ๐†๐ซ๐ž๐ž๐ง ๐ƒ๐š๐ฒ

aesthetic, hufflepuff, and aes image girl and vintage image
Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing and everything
All at once

A vice of hers is whining about a lot of stuff, adding to people thinking she acts like a kid

This is also one of her favorite songs

โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

๐ƒ๐จ๐ง'๐ญ ๐’๐ญ๐จ๐ฉ ๐Œ๐ž ๐๐จ๐ฐ - ๐๐ฎ๐ž๐ž๐ง

girl, beautiful, and brown hair image purple, lights, and euphoria image
Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time
I feel alive
So don't stop me now, don't stop me
'Cause I'm having a good time, having a good time

Referring to when Cat is finally feeling free and spends a night out with her friends to celebrate finding her place in the world

โ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”โ—ฆโ—‹โ—ฆโ”

End note: I've literally written 5k words because I mildly liked this dude who was a background character in Better Call Saul. 5k words is more than I've ever written on a single piece of fiction like that shows the dedication I have to that one character who appeared in like 4 episodes wth. Also, side note; can you even swear in articles? I censored the swear words in case lmao

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