the light feels brighter. i feel emptier. the words I speak sound fake. my touch is numb. are my thoughts actually my own?
I feel like I'm looking at my life from the outside, like this is all a movie, I know that I am not real. this is not real.
no harm is real. every fret is fake.
oh the melodrama of this life I pretend to live.
my head is empty, life hasn't felt like life in months. where even am I?

did I mean that? did that actually happen? was that real?
this can not be real.

there are no thoughts anymore, there are no feelings.
I promise you this is not real.