this is me saying how sorry I am and always will be.

I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you.
I'm sorry you left me.
I'm sorry you decided I wasn't worth fighting for.

I thought about calling you. I thought about texting you. I've thought about it a lot. I miss you. I miss what we were. what we had. you were my person and I loved you endlessly. when I found out what you had done my heart broke all over again. but in a different way than the first time. the first time you betrayed my trust and abandoned me. this time just felt like the nail in the coffin. I know we aren't together anymore and I know its not my place. you don't even know that I know. when I heard you have gotten back with her. the one before me. the one who cheated on you with your best friend. my heart broke not only for me but for you too. now you say you love her. and you seem happy.

I just wish you knew how I would have loved you. I would have supported your dreams and and pushed you to chase them. I would have done anything for you. I would have died for you. I would have loved the way you loved me. I would have loved they way you are so kind and fiercely loyal. I would have loved your clumsiness, goofiness and your crooked smile. I would have loved holidays with your family and the random errands. I would have loved working with you on cars and running random errands with you. I would have loved hanging out with your friends. I would have loved our movie nights and mini adventures. I would have loved to ride on the back of the motorcycle you want to get.

I love you enough to let you go and hope that you are loved the way you deserve to be.