My thoughts these past few months.

I'm really excited about life. This summer is actually really good. I hope things continue to be this way. I'm going to summer camp today and for the first time I'll bethe one to watch the younger kids. I don't really like kids but I am good with them. I grew up with a dad who is a police officer and an eleven year older brother that works for the military so I learned discipline from a very young age.
I am having negative thoughts about my relationship at the moment. We've only been together for 4 months now but it is a lot for me because I do have huge commitment issues. I haven't seen him a lot this past few month and I will not see him a lot for the rest of the summer either due to me travelling a lot. Even though I care about him a lot as a person I don't know if I can keep a relationship for any longer than this.

In September I start my last year of high school and in 10/07/2021 I'll be officially an adult which scares the shit out of me. I've had my own apartment since I was around 14 years old, I am the first to learn about the financial issues my family has and I can basically go out whenever I want as long as I don't come back too late, which means I have every a good aspect of being an adult already so it doesn't excite me (including going to bars and clubs from a very young age due to my country's culture).
I also have one more year of my foundation program with which I'll be able to study in England in September of 2021. The problem is, UK is leaving the European Union so the whole financial aspect of studying there will change. My family cannot afford paying upfront for my studies, I was counting on the student loan. I don't really know what I'll be doing about that.
Lastly, I think it's my first time in my life that I have such a positive outlook in life even though not everything is great. I am not stressed and I think that makes me solve things quicker and better. My birthday is in 5 days which I'm really excited about and in August I'll be visiting my brother in Cyprus. He and his wife are expecting a baby girl in October which is the scariest things I will ever go through truly.

Hope life is treating you well and that you experience the best summer or winter holidays (depending where you are) you can. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

P.S. If you ever want to talk about your problems don't hesitate to message me on Instagram @andrianna_asmk (Please tell me you came from here or else I might think it's someone random)

(Please keep in mind English is not my native language)