hey, haven't seen you in a bit.
you don't affect me anymore.
im over you.
I remember the days when you tortured me,
and told me that I wasn't good enough,
that "less is more"
that everyone would love the way you wanted me to be.

BUT IT WAS NEVER LIKE THAT

you made me skip breakfast,
carrot for lunch,
tea for dinner.
but you were hurting my soul.

BUT THIS IS THE UGLY TRUTH
my body hair started to grow,
way to much,
because I couldn't be warm by myself,
my lips, hands and feet were always blue and cold,
you stopped my period,
gave me polycystic ovaries,
that even could turn into ovaries cancer,
i was not going to be able to have babies
got bruises all over my back,
hips,
knees,
feet,
dizziness,
gut problems,
constirpation,
doctors,
lies,
nutricionists,
lies.
bulshit. just bullshit.

you got on my mind
didn't have friends,
fight with my family,
cried,
smiled,
got drunk,
cried because I was fat.

but you know what. IT WAS NEVER LIKE THAT.
when you went away,
I enjoyed food, finally,
got a pair of tits,
didn't have them before,
fix my period,
able to have babies again,
I gained friends,
gained love,
passion
fun
A LIFE.

IT CAN BE DIFFICULT TO BATTLE THIS, BUT YOU ARE ALWAYS CAPABLE.
"ASSUME TO OVERCOME"
- LOVE YOURSELF,
YOU ARE ENOUGH,
YOU ARE LOVED