We're going through pretty, crazy times lately... I personally call it a revolution, agree or disagree, but it takes some adjusting for everyone.

I don't know about you but I've kind of lost myself lately. I'm home 24/7 not going outside enough and not seeing anyone, not even while social distancing. I've basically just been home, alone all day in my room, trying to study from 9 to 5 and just having dinner with my siblings and parents and going to bed. It's been really weird.

I've avoided social media for a ton of reasons but mainly because I don't feel myself anymore and social media is a very opinionated place I didn't want it to influence me even more since I've already haven't been feeling like myself. I feel as if I don't know who I am anymore, what I wake up for, I can't see my daily goals clearly anymore due to the lack of structure, always being home. I doubt myself constantly and keep overthinking everything and nothing.

So I did the fallowing:

Closed my eyes

Breath in, breath out,
Breath in, breath out,
Breath in, breath out.

I binged all of Avatar the last Airbender, and surprisingly it had a very calming effect on me.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53rCO8BsKwU

The music, scenery, plot and wise saying and messages really had a peaceful, calming effect on me.
As surprising as it is for a cartoon.

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avatar, life, and peace image

It got me curious towards the spirituality behind it, and made me dive into the book that I had at home, that came closest to it, my astrology book "The signs, decode the stars, reframe your life" by Carolyne Faulkner. And I'm so happy I dove into it and read my birth chart in it because it reminded me who I am and why I am. This in a time where I felt lost. I needed it and it helped me immediately to feel better and have a bigger sense of myself.

One important thing I have learned is to not give into despair, hope is strength.

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And that is how I can go on with faith, tomorrow is a new day. I have written down on paper a checklist of things I need to do tomorrow. It includes waking up at 8, making my bed and getting dressed immediately, making a healthy breakfast, listening to music, stretching, study for my last exam, have tea breaks in my garden, walk my dog, workout, shower, write down my feelings, read a chapter of a book,... . All with purpose and a bigger picture in mind.

I really look forward to getting deeper into my spirituality that is leaning towards buddhism, enlightenment and discover more things that add to mindfulness, peace, and acceptance of myself.

If you have any good book recommendations about all of this please send me a message, my articles haven't been the best lately because like I said I've been feeling a bit lost but I'm writing, doing it and working on it to get better.

Tell me how you feel, what you think!

Lots of love,
Sincerely,
Mél.