Ok so I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for several years.
I’m not an optimistic, clearly not.
But I’m trying,
I’m trying so hard...to stay motivated, to get up in the morning, to eat a healthy breakfast, to study, to talk to people...well, to be alive.
Only I can’t anymore.
I’m tired, so tired, every time I see a silver lining, just one shred of hope that I’m doing better and that my efforts pay up, life throws something new at me.
So I’m sorry, I’m trying, genuinely trying to be optimistic rather than to let myself go to the self pity and overwhelming sadness but I just can’t take it anymore.
I mean I feel like life’s little bitch, I feel like I can’t do anything to get better. And that sucks, to feel powerless.
How can I go on when every time I get up and try to get on with my life, someone cuts off my legs ?
It’s like picking a fist fight with someone with a bazooka.

Sorry for the depressing article, I just needed to get it out

As always you can send me a message if you want to talk but as you can see I'm not really a mood booster these days. (sorry)