I always tought i´d would be so happy if i could go to college. Now it scares the hell out of me. I just had my first week in college. I was terrified to meet new people. The first days went great. The girls were really nice. But I was in class with my best friend from high school. We were so happy we could go together. In that way all the new things were less scary because we were together. We would come late together because of traffic, sit togheter, go to the cafeteria. Our class really sucks. I dindnt care because I was with my best friend. Now she is going to another school. Im so fucking sad. Believe me I am so happy for her and I hope with all my heart that she will be in her pleace there. For me it means a lot is going to change. I havo to sit alone. I have to travel alone, i have to take breaks alone. the class is really nice but there are groups of friends and i dont belong in one of them. I havo to go to activities alone. Im gonna miss al the fun times so much. We are best friends for like 3 years, almost 4 now. We spend every day togheter making so much fun. I am so scared this is going to change. Classes togheter was always fun. Even though the lessons were boring, it didnt matter.
Im not ready to do this alone. Im so scared and sad.