I've been in love, I've been hurt, I've been misunderstood, I've been used. But nothing prepares me more for another journey than ever. What do I know about love, maybe nothing and maybe everything? I'm sure we all think that we have a fair judge of what love is and what love brings. Happiness, sorrow, joy, pain and all that. I understand.

I'm not great at relationships as I never really find true attachment of the person I am with sometimes until they let go. It sounds absurd and disappointing, but it's true. Sometimes you tend to overthink in the smallest scenarios, thinking that the other person no longer has taken an interest in you anymore, thinking that maybe there is a fair chance of what you did make them become more and more detached. But at the same time, you will laugh at the smallest things, smile until your cheeks hurt with a point of no return. You feel like you have won the lottery for finally finding a person that understands you, loves you no matter the circumstance, remember the smallest details about you that you don't even notice about yourself. Maybe even when you are reading this, this makes your thoughts jump back to the person right now, and you are smiling right now. Or feeling downhearted...

How can you tell that you truly love a person? Because sometimes I don't feel it, I want to love but I can't. When I promised that I love every side of her, I tried, but I don't sometimes. I realised that she makes me so vulnerable, to the point where I don't even think it is a good thing anymore. Vulnerability is good as you show your true emotions to the person, you feel more entitled to your own feelings, learning how to make mistakes and develop towards them. But I simply don't feel that way anymore. It's as if there is an impact behind every word and action you make, and that consequence always turns out to be hurtful or selfish. I'm tired of that...

And finally, what can you do? Do you tell the person that you have lost feelings for them? Do you tell them that you love them with every fibre in you? Do you hide and conceal all the emotions away? There are no definite answers. But all I know is that communication is the most important thing. You would rather tell them how you truly feel, than letting them know how you feel a lot later on or never. The guilt will suck you up, drawing all your feelings away, feeling empty and in doubt. It's now or never.