We all know the quote, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and a lot of people actually believe in that, but I strongly disagree. What doesn't kill you, doesn't make you stronger. I mean of course you learn from it, but you don't earn strength. What doesn't kill you is what keeps you up at night even if it's been two years since it happened. What doesn't kill you, makes you think and dream about what would have happened if it did. What doesn't kill you, makes you count every good reason why it should have killed you. What doesn't kill you, makes you slowly believe it should have and it makes you believe that everyone's life would be "better" without you. What doesn't kill you fucks up your thoughts, your body and everything you wanted to achieve, because every time you start thinking about the thing that was so bad but didn't kill you, you die a little more inside. And now I'm asking you. What is worse? Dying every day by thinking about one fucking thing and ruining everything by thinking about it? Or being dead?

What doesn't kill you, doesn't make you stronger. It makes you wish you would have been killed.

Hey, why I wrote this? Because I'm trying to handle my thoughts and I'm trying to get rid of them and get them out in some way, I hope I didn't trigger any body, all the love, E<3