I can see myself,
ten years from now,
dropping one plate after the other onto the kitchen floor
and breaking them by that,
just, because
I can't take it anymore.

I can see myself throwing glasses against the wall because I'm angry at myself.

I can see myself not eating for 2 days,
throwing up
and then eating everything that's left in the fridge.

I can see myself crying on my bedroom floor, crying in front of the mirror, but getting out of my home, after days of not being able to do it, smiling and acting like I never cried and just took a weekend for myself.

I can see myself,
ten years from now,
dropping one plate after the other onto the kitchen floor
and breaking them by that,
just, because
I can't take it anymore.