“I want to die”

I can’t get the words out of my head. Even
when I don’t feel them, I hear them. They
drown out every other thought.

Every thought I have eventually drifts back
to “I want to die.” It’s the answer to every

What do you want for dinner?
“I want to die”
How was your trip to Michigan?
“I want to die”
Was that your mom on the phone?
“I want to die”
Wasn’t Spider-Man so good? “I want to die”
Don’t you think you’re being a little
dramatic? “Of course I do and I want to die”

— Michelle Evans, from Just Another Dead Black Girl