To the one who broke my heart.

Hey there. This is not me trying to get back with you. This is me trying to understand what happen. This is me trying to be better with all of this. I don’t wanna get back with you, I don’t wanna be a couple again. This is not what I want. I just want to learn from this and trying to get better. So, there it is.

I can't say that I wasn't sad, because I was. Like really sad because of this. You broke my heart and that's okay. I learn a few things from that and that's okay if you don't love me anymore. I thought that my world ended when you said you don't wanna be with me anymore, but it didn't. my world did not end that night. I guess my life really stated that night. That's probably why I'm not mad at you anymore. I was mad, like, I wanted you to suffer like I did. I wanted someone to break your heart like you broke mine. But I realize that's not gonna make me feel better you know. Knowing that your heart has been broken it's just gonna make me sad. Because I still care. I don't love you anymore. I mean, I think I'm not in love with you anymore. I can't explain it, I just feel it. You're not a part of me anymore, I don't need you anymore. I can' explain it, I just woke up one morning realize that I don't need you in my life anymore. You walked away because you didn't love me like I did, and that's okay. I can't make you love me if you don't and I can't make you stay if you wanna go. Even if you're my first love, the first guy i ever loved. And you know what? That's okay. I'm good with that now. I mean, I'm happy for you. Like really happy that you find someone else to hold your hand. That's hurts a bit, knowing that you erase me from your life so fast, but it's okay. I'm not angry anymore, I don't want you to feel pain like I did. I don't wish that to anyone. I just want you to be okay, to be happy. And I know that you are happy right now. That's all I want for you.

Temporarily removed coffee image quotes and pain image Image by Mouna DramaQueen

So thank you for everything. Thanks for breaking my heart. I never thought I could say that one day but, thanks because you taught me to be strong. I’ve been through hell because of you but right now I’m stronger than ever and that’s thanks to you. I’m better non, better than ever. I can’t forget that I loved you, that I you’ve been part of my life for almost three years. And that’s okay to miss those moments.

So, in the end, thank you to the person who broke my heart. Thanks to you, N., i'm stronger now.

ps : i'm french, so sorry if my english is not correct. love you. ♥