i dont really know what to say.....
i mean what can i say about you?
it's been a while now hm?
i wonder what you're up to.
probably playing the game that we both cherish the most and the game that we used to love playing together hehe.
i really hope, wherever you are now, and whatever situation you are in now........ i really do hope you are well.
i really shouldn't be writing these stuff about you but im sorry my mind and heart is urging to let this out.
i really just wanted to say im sorry for how things ended between us.
im sorry if i wasn't perfect for you.
im sorry if i lacked what you needed.
im really sorry C.
its stupid of me to still think about you on some nights.
you will never find this and i hope it stays like this.
its been several months now C.
i wonder what life has been for you.
you know i really missed our conversations,
you were so mature, one of the things i loved about you.
i could never get tired of talking to you.
i had always loved your family.
ahh, what a cute little family.
you know i still have a picture of them.
never deleted it, dont think i ever will.
because.....losing that pic
is like losing another part of you C.
and i know, i know i should have already moved on.
but its not easy C
when thoughts linger around in your mind.
what am i supposed to do?
i bet your so happy where you are right now in life.
and look, i could still text you and pop up a "hey"
but no, thats not how it works right? i cant just go back to you like nothing ever happened.
you know, Charles sometimes i really want to go back to you.
but i cant. its too late now.
it hurts.
i wonder if i never said 'yes' to your question....would we still be friends and keep talking right now, this second???
nights like this, i just miss you so much but why cant i fully understand that things will never be the same.
i guess this is all i just have to say, Charles Nansen Walker.
