๐ป๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“๐‘œ ๐’ป๐“‡๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“ˆ, the fall term is just around the corner, and I am a mixture of both excitement and stress. Iโ€™m simultaneously prepared and unprepared, but Iโ€™ve been watching โ€œBack to Schoolโ€ YouTube videos so itโ€™s almost okay.

Day 24: ๐˜ž๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ข ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ'๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜บ

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I shouldnโ€™t sacrifice my peace for those who are committed to misunderstanding me, or simply donโ€™t care. It becomes exhausting. Iโ€™ve met people who I desperately wanted to befriend. Especially in high school, and particularly in my senior year. I would try to like what they liked, to act as they would, out of the possibility that maybe theyโ€™d notice me and it (whatever โ€œitโ€ was) would blossom from there. Except, the more I pretended to be someone who I knew wasnโ€™t, the more lost I felt. It became tiring after a while. Being surrounded by all these seemingly interesting people with their equally interesting backgrounds, I wanted to be just as cool. Attempting to fit myself into a box as if I were some contortionist. I spent so much time trying to be what they wanted, doing the things they expected of me. That I forgot who I was at heart, and what I needed. I had unknowingly sacrificed myself. Constantly being so mindful of the other person that I consequently forgot about what I wanted. And I wanted to think for myself, to speak in conversations on topics I actually cared about, to be left alone when I wanted to be alone. When I finally acknowledged these festering emotions I began to cut certain people out of my life. People who ultimately werenโ€™t good for my health. I learned that no matter the cost, I shouldnโ€™t have to sacrifice my well being to pacify someone else. I eventually understood that I didnโ€™t owe anyone anything.

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๐ฟ๐’ถ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡ ๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“‡๐’น๐“ˆ, ๐ต๐‘œ

-ห‹หโœ„โ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆ

๐˜–๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜—๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต:

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ˆ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด: