๐ป๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“๐‘œ ๐’ป๐“‡๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“ˆ, Iโ€™ve reached a sort of impasse, and I genuinely have no desire to do anything other than binge Netflix shows until I fall into a deep sleep.

Day 23: ๐˜ˆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ

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Dear Future Self:

Oh my God, I donโ€™t know what Iโ€™m doing. I am actual trash at writing letters, or really anything with substance that wonโ€™t make me want to cringe and/or be eviscerated. This isnโ€™t the point, you already know this because you are me. We are one (Wanna oneโ€ฆ sorry). If I think about it any further, I am going to have an aneurysm. I am writing to you... me (yup I can feel the headache already), because Iโ€™m sick and tired of being this broken record stuck on repeat. Not really doing anything with my life, but forever wishing I was doing more. Yeah, that annoying thing. I am admittedly not content with where I am in the present, your (my?) past. And yeah, Iโ€™m aware itโ€™s not the end of the world or anything. That I still have time. Itโ€™s just that sometimes I feel as though my time is running out, and itโ€™ll be too late before I can reclaim it. Iโ€™m afraid of not knowing, but Iโ€™m even more afraid of not doing anything, of my own passivity. Basically, itโ€™s get-it-together oโ€™clock. Well, at least 25% of it that is. Iโ€™m not exactly going to go all Pretty Woman overnight. Regardless, I know I wonโ€™t accomplish anything by being an inveterate procrastinator and complainer extraordinaire. I need to focus. I am full of untapped potential (saying this makes my skin crawl, but Iโ€™m not wrong), of which I have not yet dug into mainly due to a lack of self-discipline. So think of this letter as a receipt, a non-refundable vow to improve and keep improving. Simply because at the end of the day, my own success should not suffer at the toxicity of my own stubbornness. So I hope if you remember this letter, you can look back on it from a better, happier place.

Later nerd, Your Past Self

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๐ฟ๐’ถ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡ ๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“‡๐’น๐“ˆ, ๐ต๐‘œ

-ห‹หโœ„โ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆ

๐˜–๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜—๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต:

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ˆ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด: