๐ป๐๐๐๐ ๐ป๐๐๐๐, Iโm considering re-watching Teen Wolf because Dylan OโBrien is really just the love of my life. What a man.
Day 19: ๐๐ช๐ด๐ค๐ถ๐ด๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ
I technically havenโt experienced my first love yet. Iโve had many (many being the operative word) fleeting crushes, and occasionally Iโll find myself being deeply infatuated with a boy for a short period of time. However, Iโve never genuinely felt anything beyond that, not yet at least. I want to experience it, the rollercoaster ride that is being in love. Iโm a closet romantic, I love the idea of love but have never reallyโฆ been in love. You can find me hidden in the corner trying to formulate a game plan on how I will best approach the boy I like, only to discover by the time I had mustered up the courage, he has already left the party. Iโm frustratingly too shy for my own good. Simply making eye contact with my crush stresses me the heck out. The first time I tried to make full eye contact with my crush I was walking back from a night class, and didnโt expect to see him considering everyone was busy with finals. Yet somehow, the stars aligned in this (excruciatingly cringey) moment, for God was giving me another opportunity to shoot my shot (FYI I didnโt because Iโm a coward). Bracing myself, I raised my head (whilst cursing myself for not having worn something cuter) and attempted to make eye contact. Unfortunately, I think I mightโve freaked him out, because although he acknowledge my existence, his eyes remained glued to the floor (real sad, I know). When I made it far enough away from him I had to stop walking just to catch my breath, because without realizing I had held it in. My heart was pounding like crazy, and I felt like a colossal idiot. Good timesโฆ good times.
๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐น๐, ๐ต๐
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