I don't want to push you away.
I don't want to tell you terrible things.
I want to feel my skin and not flinch.
I want to look at myself and not cry.
I want to look at myself and smile.

I just want to love my body.
I that so much to ask?

There have been so many nights where I cried, wanting someone to kill the demons that were in my head.
Someone who would fight with me when I couldn't.

I tried to talk about it but it never worked.
It almost made it worse.

It always comes at the worst time.
It's crazy how you could hate yourself so much.
I'm trying to let go but it's all around me.

Where did everybody go?
Half of me has disappeared.