How is it possible that
my own body feels like a burden?

How is it possible that
the natural growth of my body hair
-underarm hair, leg hair, facial hair…-
is not acceptable to me?

But most of all,
How can i still have carbohydrates binges at nights,
knowing that my metabolism is slow,
and i gain weight easily,
so my body gets bigger
as well as the feeling of being miserable?

Why do I still struggle with disgust and guilt
In spite of all the effort put into avoiding them?

Why can't i escape from this vicious cycle?

How is it possible that i feel like a burden to myself?
Sometimes I just lose patience and
forget about self-compassion and kindness