๐ป๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“๐‘œ ๐’ป๐“‡๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“ˆ, Iโ€™M MOVING OUT TOMORROW AND AHHH! In this essay, I will discuss the perennial effects of placing high expectations onto a literal child (It's me... Iโ€™m a literal child)โ€ฆ

Day 11: ๐˜š๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ "๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ง" ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต

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What if I fail? When it comes to new experiences, a new job, project, skill, hobby, or whatever I tend to second guess myself more than Iโ€™d like to admit. Iโ€™m not confident in my abilities to do much of anything sometimes; if Iโ€™m not already good at it I find myself questioning my own capabilities. Which is why I regrettably stay within the bordered circle of my comfort zone, way too often. What if I mess it up? These kinds of thoughts weasel their way to the very front of my mind, often preventing me from taking action, like accepting a project offer or finally talking to the boy I like. Itโ€™s frustrating, to the point where I want to punch myself in the throat and scream โ€œSNAP OUT OF IT!โ€ Send help because I have fallen into a perpetual state of not knowing what to do and letting it affect my life. I mean, itโ€™s not that dramatic, but between you and me, it sure as hell feels like it sometimes.

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Iโ€™m trying to step out of my comfort zone, weโ€™re taking baby steps. I donโ€™t want to rush into anything and end up playing myself (letโ€™s not bite the clown). Joining new clubs, volunteering, going out with friends more often. All things that are on my list for the rest of 2019 (cuz ya girl is sick and tired of not making the most of her year). So maybe I will talk to that cute boy I like, even if he thinks Iโ€™m weird by now (I apologize, I know youโ€™re not reading thisโ€ฆ but likeโ€ฆ sorry). Considering the new school year is fast approaching, I have decided to step out more and take advantage of the opportunities around me, because frick man I said I was here for a โ€œgood timeโ€ and sitting around doubting myself is not a โ€œgood timeโ€ mi amigo. Soโ€ฆ even if I fail, itโ€™s time I started having more faith (especially in myself).

๐ฟ๐’ถ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡ ๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“‡๐’น๐“ˆ, ๐ต๐‘œ

-ห‹หโœ„โ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆ

๐˜–๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜—๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต:

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ˆ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด: