๐ป๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“๐‘œ ๐’ป๐“‡๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“ˆ, There is nothing, nada, zero, zilch.

Day 10: ๐˜ž๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ฉ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต

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I donโ€™t know how to explain it, itโ€™s not that I lack passion or am a cynic who is indifferent towards almost everything. I just donโ€™t know. If I were in the 8th grade again I would hands down say art is my life, even go as far as deconstructing the meaning of colour choice to the material used. That I, just like the great artists I looked up to as a kid, would one day create a piece so beautiful and blatant it spoke for itself. Then I stopped creating art, because I realized at some point I had stopped creating for myself. Instead, I was doing it because so many people had told me I was good at it and felt as though I had to live up to the expectations. I've changed since then.

I donโ€™t know myself well enough right now, and Iโ€™m honestly trying to figure everything out. I want to say Iโ€™m passionate about something, that I feel strongly about an issue (which occasionally happens) and speak heatedly about the topic. To be eager and unabashedly expressive about something that elicits a different kind of fervour within me. I have yet to discover such a thing, and Iโ€™m in no particular rush. For some people, I donโ€™t think it suddenly dawns on them like an epiphany (Iโ€™m some people). Everything and nothing is occurring simultaneously, itโ€™s difficult for me to focus. There are many issues I feel strongly for, from racial inequality to the environment. Yet at the same time, there is nothing that I am truly, sincerely passionate about. I donโ€™t know if that makes sense, it somewhat sounds like Iโ€™m contradicting myself. Iโ€™m figuring it out, and with that comes discovering what inspires, irks, motivates, or angers me. In the end, I look forward to the day I find that something, of which I can speak fiercely and candidly about.

Until then...

๐ฟ๐’ถ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡ ๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“‡๐’น๐“ˆ, ๐ต๐‘œ

-ห‹หโœ„โ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆโ”ˆ

๐˜–๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜—๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต:

๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ˆ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด: