Dear, well, I guess I shouldn't say your name.

I just wanted to let you know how I'm doing. Not that it matters, and I don't want to make you feel bad, but I'm wonderful--thanks for asking. I have my downs, but they made me stronger. I was actually just thinking about my downs, and then I thought of all the negative ways you made me feel and everything you pulled. Although it was all months ago, well, I understand that you have zero idea how long the things you did and said will stay in my brain. But, I wanted to say thank you.

You made me cry over and over again for months. I sat by my window in the winter and listened to all the songs that reminded me of you on repeat. I sat and wondered what it was I did or didn't do that made me deserve the way you treated me. It took me months to come to the realization that I didn't do anything to deserve it, it's just the way you are. And I totally understand. I mean, we're all totally different people with completely different mindsets. For example, when we were done, my way of moving on was minding my own business and grieving in private. Your way was talking about me behind my back and doing everything in your power to destroy me--whether you realized it or not.

Though I've known this for a while now, it's taken me some time to say it out loud. I deserve so much better. I deserve somebody who sticks by me through everything and someone who jumps in to defend me. Honestly though, don't tell me what they said behind my back, tell me why you let them say it. Your pride has always been more important than your loyalty, and that will be your future downfall.

And finally, when we put it all behind us, you have the courage to pretend we're actually friends and hang out with me. What, like we're okay now? We aren't, apparently. I thought we were, which is the sad thing. But no, you are obsessed with causing problems.

More jokes about me? Yup, anything to make you feel better about yourself. But you know what? Making fun of me with your friends, socially isolating me, blocking me off, that $hit won't make you feel better. You haven't learned one thing about peace and I'm sorry for you.

Gladly, your selfishness has showed me exactly what I don't want to be. I never want to be like you. I want to be kind, loving, forgiving but never a pushover. And though it sounds like I hate you, I don't. I never will. I don't have it in my heart or any time to hate someone, nevertheless, you. I thank you for showing me the things I need in life to be a better and stronger person. I truly wish you all the best.

xoxo.