𝕆𝕜𝕒𝕪 𝕊𝕠...

About this time last year I got a part time job. Sitting there in my first period classroom at school looking at my bank account, at my first pay check, I realized that it was more money than I had ever owned in all of my sixteen years. I had no idea what to do with it.

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I quickly realized that 78 dollars was not alot of money...

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𝕊𝕠𝕠𝕟 𝕖𝕟𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 seemed like alot of money became almost nothing. Transportation was a justificable expence, the rest was absolutluy useless. Not spending money is hard when there are ads EVERYWHERE.

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𝕊𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕖 stays one of the most fashionable systems to capitalize on mental health. I am all on board with meditating or taking a day off. With sleeping well and drinking lots of water. But when money gets involved, I get a little skeptical.

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𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕒 that taking care of yourself involves multiple face masks, serums and creams, is more than a little off putting. It not only implies that self care requires a certain standard of living, but that it is a nessecary thing to aim for glass skin. It requires products that are marketed on just about every social media platform and products that we will have to keep buying to keep up with our skin care routines.

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𝔸 𝕗𝕖𝕨 𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕞𝕤 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕠𝕜𝕒𝕪. It is only nessary to own any staggering ammount of these producs when they are prescribed or for serious skin conditions. It becomes problematic when these things that are of no use to us become a priority. When they give no value aside from the first rush of owning them that fades over time.

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And then we want the next best thing.
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𝕀 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕪 𝕠𝕟 food and makeup, skin care and just about anything els that caught my interest. It was ( and still is) a method of self-medication to go online and shop for things I did not need when I was stressed about school or work. It occured to me that I never really needed money until I started making some. And how my situation could be on a magnified scale, a huge problem. Nothing I bought made a huge difference in my life. It's arguable that I couldn't expect trivial things like makeup to make me happy, but I think as we get older these trivial things become more expensive and demand more of our time. The ads are made to make you belive that this product will make you 𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕪. But what if things can never really achieve that.

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