𝐻𝑖, 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑡𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑖𝑛 𝑜𝑟𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓. 𝐼𝑓 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑜𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒, 𝐼 𝘩𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦.

I am so tired.
You still claim you love me
But I know you stopped loving me ages ago.
You still claim you care about me
But your actions make the opposite very clear.
It is so unfair.
If you wanna be there
Do not just say it to me.
Show me.
I am begging you.
I can not take those lies anymore.
You told me we were soulmates.
Now I am sitting here alone.
And wondering
Where did it go wrong?
Where did that connection go?
You have no idea how much pain I am in
Because you act like I do not exist.
You can not blame me for leaving.
I have to protect myself.
Do not manipulate me
And make it seem like I am stupid.
If you do not even want to talk to me
I have nothing left to say.
I want nothing more than to be there for you.
But you can not treat me like I am worthless.
What is a relationship without trust?
It is nothing.
And our trust is lost
To so many broken promises.
Inside me I know
That you have been gone for a long time.
And that is why for myself
I know that I have no other choice than to let you go.