I'm back with a part 2 of my story. If you haven't read the first one. I recommend doing. Otherwise, you will not understand what I'm talking about.

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I'm so glad that I choose for myself. I think it has been almost 3 months and I'm doing so much better. It was hard to put my needs first. But it was so important.

In the beginning, he would be the only thing that I was thinking about. Everything that happened in a day somehow was linked in my mind to him. I felt terrible and cried multiple times because of it.

But change came. Slow. But it did came.

The boy I'm talking about had some problems he wanted my advice on and he wanted to know what was wrong with me. He sensed that something was not right. After I helped him with his problem he asked me.

I wasn't planning on telling him, because it's embarrassing and I didn't want anything to change. He convinced me after some time to tell him. I think that was one of the hardest things I had to do. I told him how he would made me feel when he did or said things. I also told him that I didn't want those things to happen. I didn't want to be in a relationship with him. I wanted the opposite. Just friendship, nothing more.

He was understanding and we talked a bit more about it. We both agreed that nothing would change.

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I was happy I told him. I didn't have to be scared he would notice anymore. I could go back to before.

It was still hard but it became easier little by little. I made a plan with myself that I would just do me and that I would keep a little distance. That means, nothing sitting next to him or don't start texting him. I'm doing this for me. Taking care of yourself is important.

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I still haven't reached the finish line but I'm coming close. It has been worth all the feelings I have felt and the thoughts I have thought.

A little message to people reading this who are dealing with something similar.

It is so important that you take care of yourself. It's hard, but when it becomes easier little by little it's rewarding and it feels good.

I want to end this article with a quote that is dear to me.

''You can't rely on anyone for your own happiness''

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Xx Britt