heartbreak. we all experience it. a breakup, friendship, or even a family member. recently, I've lost someone really important in my life all for nothing.

but the heartbreak? it's like an endless recession of constant weight and pressure. one minute it feels like you have the whole world inside of you, the next, you feel as if you have nothing to look forward to. heartbreak is like seeing your best friend flirting with your boyfriend (just an example, not real life). heartbreak is like sad, it's literally one of the worst feelings as a human being. its like there's nothing you can do about all this sadness so you store it up, all to explode into tears late into the night.

see, i was always excited and happy to see this person, but seeing as they broke my heart, I'm supposed to hate them for making me feel this way, but I entirely don't. I loved this person.

love-the most misused word in the English dictionary. we commonly use this word a lot, whether we say it to a friend, bf/gf, family member, or even a pet. heck, I've probably said this word about ten times today. but I wonder as this word, this four-letter word which has so many meanings, actually has anything to do with infatuation or heck, even love/lust itself.

the top definition for this word (love) on https://www.urbandictionary.com is
that is infatuation,
obsession,
loneliness,
despair,
or any combination of the above
love ISN'T when you want or need to be with them every second of the day
love IS when the time you spend with them is perfect, and the time you spend apart is equally as good
love ISN'T when you depend on them and your whole life revolves around them
love IS when they are a perfect addition to your life, it doesn't make everything else seem perfect, it makes everything else bearable and manageable
they help you grow as a person, and make you a better person and feel better about yourself and life in general
love ISN'T when you hate saying goodbye
love IS when you see "goodbye" as the possibility of saying "hello" all over again
love DOESN'T cover their flaws
love DOES show their flaws for all they are, but you love their imperfections, cuz it makes them who they are, and you love and accept them for everything they are
love grows
and encourages growth
love isn't perfect
but it's always close
love,
real true love,
is the best thing that will ever happen to you (https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=love&utm_source=search-action)

well, if you didn't read that, here's the second top definition for the word love:
The greatest and the worst thing that could ever to happen to a person.
(https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=love&utm_source=search-action)

here's what https://www.dictionary.com/ has to say:
a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
(https://www.dictionary.com/browse/love)

here's a definition from https://www.merriam-webster.com :
strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties
(https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/love?src=search-dict-hed)

what does all this have to do with heartbreak? well, simply because we learn to get over it and love again. love to me is constantly thinking, believing, caring, attending, loving, another person. I'm already getting over it. little by little we forget about this heartbreak and realize how much better we can be. sure, you spent so much time invested in this person, but someone will come along in your life, and invest so much time in you. and love you for who you truly deserve to be. I know all of this sounds super cliche but believe me, I'm just another teenager just like you. I've seen it happen to those around me. we learn to love. it's in our system, we live for love.

I've gone through two breakups, not many, but from a four-month relationship to a year and a quarter relationship. both have shaped me into becoming the person I am today and becoming a better individual. plus between these two relationships, I've learned so much. like how to kiss, and how to go on a formal date, what to get your significant other for their birthday/Christmas, how to discreetly ask them what they like to do (so you can plan for dates in the future), how to make out, in fact. there's so much to learn and the more you love, learn, and get heartbroken, the more you can see and do. it sounds bad I know, but I promise heartbreak is where we can grow the most.