u, please don't read this

Why do you do that? It just makes me more and more confused. I just need you to be outright and tell me if there's something or it there isn't. Because I know what you've said, and how it changes with people, but I can't keep going like this thinking maybe there's something more, and maybe I was wrong when I said we could be just friends cause maybe it's too much, maybe I can't. Just tell me, you know what I want and how I feel but when you make 'jokes' like that it fucks with me, and you know that cause you know me better than anyone. Like do you mean something or am I shooting in the dark. Don't say it if you don't mean it, and don't hide behind jokes, please. Baby you don't want people to talk about it, but you have nothing to be ashamed of, so don't change what you think or say to me for them because it's not about them. And don't change how you are with me because of what they might say when we both know it feels good, don't be afraid cause you're stronger than you believe, and I feel stupid waiting forever. You're hurting my heart