I avoided writing yesterday.
I honestly didn't feel like it.
So I won't write if I feel forced to.
About you.
I don't know what else do you want me to tell you.
You hurt me, I am struggling, and you don't give a damn about me.
So I don't know if this is the last time in a while that I write about you.
A part of me feels like I'm getting used to being without you.
Another one feels like it makes no sense missing you cause half of the time you weren't with me at all.
And then I feel like I'm only searching for distractions.
What I'm sure about now, is that I want to work in me.
I want to be fine.
I just don't know how to.
How are you supposed to biuld yourself back up again?
there's no guide for that.
and the more time passes I feel like I'm getting lost and everything just lost meaning.
But I don't want you back.
I don't want you here.
You don't belong around me anymore.
You are not the person I loved anymore.
And I'm letting you go.
I'm oppening the gates, I won't hold on to you or the idea I had of you anymore, I won't fight to keep this boat floating. Because I'm getting on my own ship and I'm sailing away, you can keep the boat for yourself, I don't need it anymore. All I need is myself. You can drown or row.
I don't care anymore.