My life's a spiral.
No matter what I do, it keeps going down and down and down...

I try my best! I really do! But just keeps getting worse and honestly I'm so done.

That's how I've been feeling this year... done.

With everything.

I hate crying but I've been bursting in tears so often these last few weeks because I just can't deal with it anymore.
It is everyhting... I've been so alone for so long.
I don't have any friends and the family that I would "kind of" talk to is so far away...

I don't feel anything, and at the same time feel everything so god damn deeply that I just want everything to be over.