Trying

I'm trying
I'm trying so hard

I'm trying
I'm trying to feel happy again
I'm trying to be okay with myself
I'm trying to eat a meal without feeling guilty
I'm trying to stop getting drunk every time I can't handle my feelings
I'm trying to stop hurting myself
I'm trying to cope
I'm trying

It's hard
Maybe it's too hard cause I don't know who I am anymore
I don't know what will be left of me when I take all of this away
I don't know if I can do this on my own
I'm scared

But I'm trying