I ruined it
I ruined us
Or more precisely I ruined the possibility of '"us"
I was so afraid to get hurt so I hurt you
I didn't let you in
I thought I would, but I didn't
I didn't even noticed it in the first place but i did hurt you
It wasn't my intention
I'm sorry
I ruined something that could have turned out wonderful
And I am afraid I ruined you too
I'm sorry, so fucking sorry