I honestly don't know what to do aha
lately things have been going okay I guess, but I feel off, I need a break real bad, and I need a change, I changed my hair and It made me feel better but idk I still feel stuck. :\
I messed up real bad, I vaped and I know its not really something you should do but I was feeling like trying something I needed to do something different and hey you only live once.
After I did it and my friends found out they were all really upset and disappointed, my best friend, he was really upset, and I understand why he doesn't want me getting addicted, and I was such an asshole best friend, I broke the promise I made with him and did it again, its not even that I think its cool to do it, its just relaxing...
I lied and said I didn't do it again and damn I feel soooo bad, I felt so disappointed in myself, he believes me, which I guess is good, but I swear if he finds out i'm dead...
I just haven't been myself lately and I don't know how to fix it....

I just need some time for myself... I just want to disappear for a bit...
Maybe I'll try it out aha

Just a little rant, I needed to get it out....
Hopefully things will get better soon,
mads♡